What's next?

I've made a lot of mistakes.

So what's next for me???

You're not on the right path.

If the path you're on is making you live a destructive life. 
Then you're not on the right path.
Just saying...

It hurts

It hurts to know all the things that could have been...

My existence depends on this.

If everything goes as planned I will be the happiest girl alive.
But if everything doesn't then my life is screwed (POINT BLANK PERIOD)

What's worse?

I don't even know what's worse. 

To be completely ignored or to be blamed.

That extra attention.

Those little things I needed to get me through the day before,

are the same things I need today. 

Yes, I'm older and wiser, but that doesn't mean that I'm heartless.

I miss those days

 when getting unconditional love was natural every day. 

I miss those days 

when they were happy to see me smile. 

It's a good thing that...

The pressure to feel good about myself 

is greater than the pressure to ace my exams.